time management. grrr.

one reason i haven't been blogging is the TIME & ENERGY it takes. i just started working last tuesday and i already have over 50hrs in that muh fucka! lol like c'mon man i hardly have time to do chores and ish let along blog. im trying to make that mulah baby! =] anywho whats up with me. WORK i love my coworkers, they keep me awake with all they damn spanish when i wanna fall the fuck over from standing up for 8 hours. lol. i just got 2 days off this week and the first one i spent at church and the second on i spent at the pool and at sha-ree's aunt's house. fun fun fun. except the 1st pool we were supposed to go to had all types of algae and diseases from it not being clean in it. lol bugs and ish.

got this dude in my life that i've known for years and i've NEVER even though about looking at him in any type of way. but lately he's been showing his interest and shedding those old layers from back in the day i knew of and showing the more mature him. the thing is he actually knows when my birthday is right off the dome and actually rubbed my feet. scary? i know. lol and we've only been friends. i just hope he's gonna keep it real because that's all i want. he's such a play fiend and i need to see his serious side a lil more. he's a mess and he knows it lol. we don't even talk officially we're just feeling each other out i guess. whatever im cool with that. its summer time for fun. plus im going to be a senior so its nooooo pressure. none at all. because whatever needs to happen will be.

i miss dafiq's updates on facebook. <3


burger king food rocks i just don't wanna get fat as hell so imma need to get this off some type of way. eating all them damn milkshakes and oreos. lol =p

okay its late i have work tomorrow at 2 so i'll blog the next time i have a chance.

he recieved his wings & halo

ATLANTIC CITY - Dafiq Rasheed, 19, who ran as a City Council candidate in the city's June democratic primary, has died.

His father, Dennis White, and one of his aunt's said Rasheed was attending a pool party at a friend's house Saturday when he died. His aunt, who answered the phone at Rasheed's mother's house, said the pool party was at a private home in Galloway Township. She said the cause of death was not immediately known, but he was reportedly under water for some time. She said the family is awaiting results of an autopsy.

White said his son, a politically active young man since his days at Atlantic City High School and now as a student at Rutgers University, was a good person.

"He was an inspiration to a lot of young people," White said.

Councilman Marty Small, who was Rasheed's running mate, said he learned of Rasheed's death at about 10 p.m. Saturday. He then went to AtlantiCare Regional Medical Center, mainland division, where he saw Rasheed's lifeless body.

"It hurts," Small said. "Here's a kid, 19 years old. He had a future in anything he wanted and he's gone." Small said he last spoke to Rasheed on Friday and the two spoke about Rasheed's interest in working for a law firm.

"It's sad. I always had a great relationship with Dafiq," Small said.



wow. when i first heard about it, i refused to believe it. not again, not him. not now. even when people were telling the the story as to who what when where why how, i still didn't believe it. until i woke up this morning. its sooooo crazy how you can look into someone's face one day and realize the next that they have left this earth to live with the angels. im so numb right now that its ridiculous but everytime i look at his picture i go into tears. i just wish it was never like this. it reminds me of cory and how his sister felt and all the stuff that she went through after his death and to hope and pray his brother doesn't do the same thing. idk man i just don't know.

Rest In Peace Dafiq Rasheed.

party; hoes; harijuku barbie; & mickey d's

party;okay sooo yesterday was when ACHS class of '09 graduated and this guy from this local group called "captains of bread" named COTA threw a party. it was fun besides the fact that it was in this tennis court they made into a hall and everyone kept tripping over cords and shit lol. okay they kept replaying the same songs over and over like do something with your life before i kill the dj.

hoes;OMFG! i NEVER saw girls EVER dress as disgusting as i saw last night! EWAAAA! like all types of booty shorts in they ass crack like underwear about to give them yeast infections like gosh Vagisil on DECK! lmfao. one girl came in there with nothing but a shirt and a belt & shoes. mind you the shirt aint even cover the bottom of her ass cheeks and she had the nerve to bend over and show her thong to the whole party. they had ass shaking contest and the contestants aint have no ass! LMFAO. girls had on these skirts from h&m that are really short and you should wear some type of shorts under em and they was shaking they ass in front of the freaking security! like security is how old now? statatoury rape perhaps? there was all types of actually dry sex going on. ugh so nasty.

nicki minaj the harijuku barbie;

yes she did show up and she does look like the pictures. she's very pretty and has a nice frame. smaller than i thought she'd be though. idk what i thought i'd see. but really i ain't think she'd really come. whatever. she is a very animated performer. yes she does talk how she does on the songs and its kinda weird. well she basically did a verse from every song she thought we knew but the girl ain't come til like 2. lol. she was giving away her mixtape "beam me up scotty" to anyone she thought was a "bad bitch" lol hilarious. then she had 2 girls come on stage and shake they ass for a cd but she ended up giving them both the cd. okay so she is performing and out of nowhere these girls start fighting over who knows what. security separate them. show goes on. as SOO as Nicki Minaj was done performing and left the area. ALL HELL BROKE LOOSE! i can't even tell ya what happened because all i saw was ppl running and my bff brother is a party promoter and he automatically pulled us onto the stage until all of the commotion died down. i wanna know how the hell the police got there so fast? lol okay so i was escorted to my ride and left.

McDonalds; okay so we jerry, mykhel, and i go to MD and we in there jerry like umm i think thats a guy from a band. and im sitting here like what band? names all these bands. so i guess he goes over there and asks him and he says he's in Good Charolette. so jerry comes back to us and tells us who he is i was like forreal? and he's like nicole richie is with him too. im like no its not her. and then soon as they get up to leave im like "THAT IS HER!" lol i was shocked she is sooooo damn tiny. like a lil kid but she was very pregnant. jerry asked for a picture but joel was like "we just wanna go home" and i could respect that because i wanted to go home to and they are only human. plus it was like 3am. lol


okay so now my feet hurt ughh!

micheal jackson dies 1958-2009

He collapsed at his residence in the Holmby Hills section of Los Angeles, California, about noon Pacific time, suffering cardiac arrest, according to brother Randy Jackson. He died at UCLA Medical Center.



damn shame. but his heart literally stopped, guess he fulfilled his destiny! people should be sad but at the same time, his music is still well alive. and he also did everything anyone ever wanted and wants to do. he lived everyone's dreams and it was just his time to go.
RIP Micheal Jackson

my favorite song & video. bro&sis they killed this

you're a jerk; unanswered questions

today; i am in one of those moods; yes those. like kid cudi said "excuse me mood". anyways... idk i was just editing my myspace and there's the section that says "who i'd like to meet" yes that section. and it made me think. now my answer for that section was "my EQUAL in all aspects of LIFE". now i know i won't find that until i get out of this slump called AC, but i know its out there. until then, i just have to deal with the bull. but i just always had so many questions to ask males, but they never seem to have an answer to em.

1. why do boys start to act crazy in the summertime, and in the winter wanna be all hugged up one girl?
2. why can boys be open with their sexuality or be promiscuous, yet when i girl knows what she wants sexually, she's labeled as a "whore"?
3. why do when boys get broken up with by a female, they have to bash her name into the ground claming "she was a hoe anyways" just because their feelings got crushed?
4. what ever happened to boys being courteous?
5. why do boys call every female they don't know and some they do know a bitch?
6. why can't boys stay faithful?
7. if a boys just wants to have sex with a girl, why does he have to tell her sweet nothing and get her feelings involved, instead of just telling her all he wants to do is fuck?
8. why do males think they have to lie to females?
9. if you know you're gonna cheat, why not break up with the girl you're with already?
10. why do boys leave the one thats doing everything they ever need for someone that does less than half?
11. why do niggas use the excuse "im not ready yet" when they can easily make up in their mind that they are?
12. why do boys never realize what a good female they have until she is gone and with another male?
13. what is the real definition of a man whore, and do most males consider themselves on?
14. why isn't it okay for a male to be a virgin?
15. why do niggas try to pressure one girl into sex when there are girls who just want it no pressure needed?
16. why can't boys live without sex?
17. why is it okay for boys to smoke, drink, and party, yet they expect their girl to stay in the house.

there are sooo many questions that come to mind, i'll be editing this blog because this is something that is everlastingly developing...

why white kids need beatings !

okay so the boy's mom canceled his world of warcraft account and now the boy just starts going crazy, now if he was black NONE of this would've happened. check how dude comes in there with clothes on and leave without sudden notice with some drawers on! lol priceless





there are no words to explain about this lil boy here! OMG!

i think i've met one of you before;

ahhhh... had so much fun yesterday. went to the mall with the girls & had a ball. we were supposed to go to this get together, but ended up staying at sha-ree's house. ugh i saw the bitch ass nigga like more than planned. i planned on not seeing him for as long as i could but i ended up seeing him over 3 times in one week. i don't see what the hype is about him. he's a liar, and he's lies about lying! ugh! he's worth no ones time and i don't even know why i gave him any of mines. he's so fake, but luckily the 4th time i saw his ass i had my oldie but goodie joint with me & we paid him no mind because is he worth it? HELL NO! lol my oldie but goodie, idk about him sometimes. i've been trying with him off and on since my sophomore year! like wtf and he seems to be one of those shy players but he's seeming to come out of it. idk how this will work out, but for now im going to have fun



my theory on summer '09: im not gonna give a FUCK about anybody that doesn't care about me. im not gonna try to keep niggas down, you wanna leave? GO, NEXT in line! im basically a senior and all the niggas here, i know everything about them because they are all cut from the same cloth Atlantic City! i need a breath of fresh air. something exciting and i've come to the conclusion that im not gonna fins that until im a student at Howard University fall of 2010! right now, it's all about me. ME ME ME! might sound self centered, but no one is going to care about my feelings more than me. sorry to say.