things i love&hate

i hate biology AP: im like failing when i am studying UGH!
im starting to hate band: just not fun anymore, UGH!
i hate stupid girls: grow the freak up!
i hate dumb hoes: why do you have to chase after someone else's man?
i hate stupid boys: do you act stupid on purpose or is it in your DNA
i hate black and milds: they make you stink and give me headaches even though i never smoked em
i hate drunk girls: you make yourself look like sluts!
i hate AC: i can't wait to get out of this region, everyone is sooo closed minded
i hate tv: there's never anything on!


i love: being with my boyfriend, he's the best.
i love: being around my friend, they never cease to amaze me!
i love: my sister, even though she's at college. lol
i love: making shit in pottery class! <3
i love: listening to my IPOD!
i love: MY MOM DUHHH! lol
i love: being a SEN10R!
i love: my body
i love: thos who love me!
i love: ME!

my senior schedule [for now]

1 - african amer lit
2 - anal/pre-calc
3 - eng 4 honors
4 - cult pot 1
5 - biology ap
6 - lunch a
7 - physics honors
8 - phys ed/he 5days

gonna drop cult pot 1 and get lunch that period because they are gonna try to make me give up my lunch for a lab and i get hungry! lol

unexplainable . . . 8-O

chewing gum !

080109...♥


okay so this is the infamous "boyfriend". i use the "" because i think the whole title thing is kinda cliche in a way. why does everything have to be labeled? i like him and he likes me a LOT. that's all ppl really need to know about us. people say im out of his league or too good for him or whatever i don't see it. it doesn't matter what others think anyways, they don't have to be in a relationship with either me or him so their comments don't phase us. he does the sweetest things and that's why i like him in the 1st place.

okay so lately i've been in a working frenzy & never get a chance to live life. in the upcoming weeks, i will have to work, go to bandfront practice, & still manage to get a new cell phone and my nails & eyebrows done. all this week



okay so this is the phone i have me & my mom have it.m i've had this since last year and its already all types of done. i text so much the buttons are all rubbed down and so is the down arrow.our bill is $112 a month for only 700 min & unlimited texting unbelievable. sooo now i wanna upgrade and if i want it on tmobile i have to pay like extra money. so im going to change to boost mobile and get unlimited EVERYTHING for only $50 a month! TMobile needs to get it together. lol this is the phone that im getting.



i know this was kind of a lengthy blog but i haven't done it in a while, oh yeah i have summer reading and this is one of the books. read it.




mwuahhhhhh readers ...♥

too DAY!

RAWR! i've been so freaking busy lately i think im going CRAZY! i have no time to do anything because my job just loves giving me the late shift. then i have band practice AND glam vixen business to handle. i find myself having the energy after an 8 hour shift going out with my friends. i have no time to go spend the money i took so much time to ear ughh. but whatever i have no choice unless i wanna unemployed. okay so the boy i've been talking about in my past blog we still talk and its weird because never a day inmy life have i ever htough we would ever be likke this. i guess the best things come unexpected. okay sooo i guess we were going to make it official like thi smorning but i don't wanna rush it and he thinks today's dat is ugly lmfaoo random i know. but im not pressurng it. im tired of the bull so whatever happens, happens. i love my REAL FRIENDS so much, because even though my life is soooo busy, they manage to never change up on me or get mad at the fact that my life is like this at the moment. it hasn't hit me yet that im actually a senior and this time next year im going to be a graduate of high school and getting ready to attend college. ttyl work at 2.

mwuahhhhhhhh!

...♥

quick post =p

-- no work today
-- watched an episode of maury with the wild teenage girls
-- talked to biggumz throughout the day
-- ate junkfood
-- watched sister, sister
-- took a catnap
-- woke up & mom decides she wants to go to the movies to see transformers
-- she made dinner; clam chowder
-- going to eat
-- he was getting dreads, now he's not

end.

girl ♥'s boy DRAMA

last night/ this morning was VERY eventful. okay let's make it simple girl&boy go out. boy liked me before he even met girl. boy still likes me even though he's with girl. he never cheats on girl. they break up and boy starts to pursue me. boy, friends, and i go to the boardwalk. girl is there. i am there with boy. can you say DRAMA! first someone tells me that the girl was calling me a bitch, idc no hair off my head, plus its understandable after girl & boy break up. she says nothing to me, expected. her sister says something to me just being fake when she called me a bitch too. whatever. i kill em with kindness that's just me. imma sweetheart, i don't fuss over dumb stuff. girl & her friends just looking at me probably talking about me who cares, they were never my friends any how. boy's on me in front of girl. girl is all emotional. idk man i know that she's sad but she can't get mad at me for something i had no control over. im not gonna call her a bitch or anything like that cuz that's not my character and i don't think she's a bitch. she's just heartbroken. but the only thing is girl can't get mad at me for this. i didn't make them break up. i didn't tell boy to break up with her. i did the complete opposite. but whatever. boys will be boys and girls just have to deal.

time management. grrr.

one reason i haven't been blogging is the TIME & ENERGY it takes. i just started working last tuesday and i already have over 50hrs in that muh fucka! lol like c'mon man i hardly have time to do chores and ish let along blog. im trying to make that mulah baby! =] anywho whats up with me. WORK i love my coworkers, they keep me awake with all they damn spanish when i wanna fall the fuck over from standing up for 8 hours. lol. i just got 2 days off this week and the first one i spent at church and the second on i spent at the pool and at sha-ree's aunt's house. fun fun fun. except the 1st pool we were supposed to go to had all types of algae and diseases from it not being clean in it. lol bugs and ish.

got this dude in my life that i've known for years and i've NEVER even though about looking at him in any type of way. but lately he's been showing his interest and shedding those old layers from back in the day i knew of and showing the more mature him. the thing is he actually knows when my birthday is right off the dome and actually rubbed my feet. scary? i know. lol and we've only been friends. i just hope he's gonna keep it real because that's all i want. he's such a play fiend and i need to see his serious side a lil more. he's a mess and he knows it lol. we don't even talk officially we're just feeling each other out i guess. whatever im cool with that. its summer time for fun. plus im going to be a senior so its nooooo pressure. none at all. because whatever needs to happen will be.

i miss dafiq's updates on facebook. <3


burger king food rocks i just don't wanna get fat as hell so imma need to get this off some type of way. eating all them damn milkshakes and oreos. lol =p

okay its late i have work tomorrow at 2 so i'll blog the next time i have a chance.

he recieved his wings & halo

ATLANTIC CITY - Dafiq Rasheed, 19, who ran as a City Council candidate in the city's June democratic primary, has died.

His father, Dennis White, and one of his aunt's said Rasheed was attending a pool party at a friend's house Saturday when he died. His aunt, who answered the phone at Rasheed's mother's house, said the pool party was at a private home in Galloway Township. She said the cause of death was not immediately known, but he was reportedly under water for some time. She said the family is awaiting results of an autopsy.

White said his son, a politically active young man since his days at Atlantic City High School and now as a student at Rutgers University, was a good person.

"He was an inspiration to a lot of young people," White said.

Councilman Marty Small, who was Rasheed's running mate, said he learned of Rasheed's death at about 10 p.m. Saturday. He then went to AtlantiCare Regional Medical Center, mainland division, where he saw Rasheed's lifeless body.

"It hurts," Small said. "Here's a kid, 19 years old. He had a future in anything he wanted and he's gone." Small said he last spoke to Rasheed on Friday and the two spoke about Rasheed's interest in working for a law firm.

"It's sad. I always had a great relationship with Dafiq," Small said.



wow. when i first heard about it, i refused to believe it. not again, not him. not now. even when people were telling the the story as to who what when where why how, i still didn't believe it. until i woke up this morning. its sooooo crazy how you can look into someone's face one day and realize the next that they have left this earth to live with the angels. im so numb right now that its ridiculous but everytime i look at his picture i go into tears. i just wish it was never like this. it reminds me of cory and how his sister felt and all the stuff that she went through after his death and to hope and pray his brother doesn't do the same thing. idk man i just don't know.

Rest In Peace Dafiq Rasheed.

party; hoes; harijuku barbie; & mickey d's

party;okay sooo yesterday was when ACHS class of '09 graduated and this guy from this local group called "captains of bread" named COTA threw a party. it was fun besides the fact that it was in this tennis court they made into a hall and everyone kept tripping over cords and shit lol. okay they kept replaying the same songs over and over like do something with your life before i kill the dj.

hoes;OMFG! i NEVER saw girls EVER dress as disgusting as i saw last night! EWAAAA! like all types of booty shorts in they ass crack like underwear about to give them yeast infections like gosh Vagisil on DECK! lmfao. one girl came in there with nothing but a shirt and a belt & shoes. mind you the shirt aint even cover the bottom of her ass cheeks and she had the nerve to bend over and show her thong to the whole party. they had ass shaking contest and the contestants aint have no ass! LMFAO. girls had on these skirts from h&m that are really short and you should wear some type of shorts under em and they was shaking they ass in front of the freaking security! like security is how old now? statatoury rape perhaps? there was all types of actually dry sex going on. ugh so nasty.

nicki minaj the harijuku barbie;

yes she did show up and she does look like the pictures. she's very pretty and has a nice frame. smaller than i thought she'd be though. idk what i thought i'd see. but really i ain't think she'd really come. whatever. she is a very animated performer. yes she does talk how she does on the songs and its kinda weird. well she basically did a verse from every song she thought we knew but the girl ain't come til like 2. lol. she was giving away her mixtape "beam me up scotty" to anyone she thought was a "bad bitch" lol hilarious. then she had 2 girls come on stage and shake they ass for a cd but she ended up giving them both the cd. okay so she is performing and out of nowhere these girls start fighting over who knows what. security separate them. show goes on. as SOO as Nicki Minaj was done performing and left the area. ALL HELL BROKE LOOSE! i can't even tell ya what happened because all i saw was ppl running and my bff brother is a party promoter and he automatically pulled us onto the stage until all of the commotion died down. i wanna know how the hell the police got there so fast? lol okay so i was escorted to my ride and left.

McDonalds; okay so we jerry, mykhel, and i go to MD and we in there jerry like umm i think thats a guy from a band. and im sitting here like what band? names all these bands. so i guess he goes over there and asks him and he says he's in Good Charolette. so jerry comes back to us and tells us who he is i was like forreal? and he's like nicole richie is with him too. im like no its not her. and then soon as they get up to leave im like "THAT IS HER!" lol i was shocked she is sooooo damn tiny. like a lil kid but she was very pregnant. jerry asked for a picture but joel was like "we just wanna go home" and i could respect that because i wanted to go home to and they are only human. plus it was like 3am. lol


okay so now my feet hurt ughh!

micheal jackson dies 1958-2009

He collapsed at his residence in the Holmby Hills section of Los Angeles, California, about noon Pacific time, suffering cardiac arrest, according to brother Randy Jackson. He died at UCLA Medical Center.



damn shame. but his heart literally stopped, guess he fulfilled his destiny! people should be sad but at the same time, his music is still well alive. and he also did everything anyone ever wanted and wants to do. he lived everyone's dreams and it was just his time to go.
RIP Micheal Jackson

my favorite song & video. bro&sis they killed this

you're a jerk; unanswered questions

today; i am in one of those moods; yes those. like kid cudi said "excuse me mood". anyways... idk i was just editing my myspace and there's the section that says "who i'd like to meet" yes that section. and it made me think. now my answer for that section was "my EQUAL in all aspects of LIFE". now i know i won't find that until i get out of this slump called AC, but i know its out there. until then, i just have to deal with the bull. but i just always had so many questions to ask males, but they never seem to have an answer to em.

1. why do boys start to act crazy in the summertime, and in the winter wanna be all hugged up one girl?
2. why can boys be open with their sexuality or be promiscuous, yet when i girl knows what she wants sexually, she's labeled as a "whore"?
3. why do when boys get broken up with by a female, they have to bash her name into the ground claming "she was a hoe anyways" just because their feelings got crushed?
4. what ever happened to boys being courteous?
5. why do boys call every female they don't know and some they do know a bitch?
6. why can't boys stay faithful?
7. if a boys just wants to have sex with a girl, why does he have to tell her sweet nothing and get her feelings involved, instead of just telling her all he wants to do is fuck?
8. why do males think they have to lie to females?
9. if you know you're gonna cheat, why not break up with the girl you're with already?
10. why do boys leave the one thats doing everything they ever need for someone that does less than half?
11. why do niggas use the excuse "im not ready yet" when they can easily make up in their mind that they are?
12. why do boys never realize what a good female they have until she is gone and with another male?
13. what is the real definition of a man whore, and do most males consider themselves on?
14. why isn't it okay for a male to be a virgin?
15. why do niggas try to pressure one girl into sex when there are girls who just want it no pressure needed?
16. why can't boys live without sex?
17. why is it okay for boys to smoke, drink, and party, yet they expect their girl to stay in the house.

there are sooo many questions that come to mind, i'll be editing this blog because this is something that is everlastingly developing...

why white kids need beatings !

okay so the boy's mom canceled his world of warcraft account and now the boy just starts going crazy, now if he was black NONE of this would've happened. check how dude comes in there with clothes on and leave without sudden notice with some drawers on! lol priceless





there are no words to explain about this lil boy here! OMG!

i think i've met one of you before;

ahhhh... had so much fun yesterday. went to the mall with the girls & had a ball. we were supposed to go to this get together, but ended up staying at sha-ree's house. ugh i saw the bitch ass nigga like more than planned. i planned on not seeing him for as long as i could but i ended up seeing him over 3 times in one week. i don't see what the hype is about him. he's a liar, and he's lies about lying! ugh! he's worth no ones time and i don't even know why i gave him any of mines. he's so fake, but luckily the 4th time i saw his ass i had my oldie but goodie joint with me & we paid him no mind because is he worth it? HELL NO! lol my oldie but goodie, idk about him sometimes. i've been trying with him off and on since my sophomore year! like wtf and he seems to be one of those shy players but he's seeming to come out of it. idk how this will work out, but for now im going to have fun



my theory on summer '09: im not gonna give a FUCK about anybody that doesn't care about me. im not gonna try to keep niggas down, you wanna leave? GO, NEXT in line! im basically a senior and all the niggas here, i know everything about them because they are all cut from the same cloth Atlantic City! i need a breath of fresh air. something exciting and i've come to the conclusion that im not gonna fins that until im a student at Howard University fall of 2010! right now, it's all about me. ME ME ME! might sound self centered, but no one is going to care about my feelings more than me. sorry to say.

hair, horoscopes, & him

first let me start off with the fact that i AM cutting my hair this summer & i DO NOT care what people think about it because it's my hair and they are going to end up copying it anyways. this is the basic haircut i want, but im going to put my own lil spin on it. don't make any judgements until you see it on my head.







todays horoscope for an aries [ME]: Having fun is good for the heart and soul, but even the most enjoyable experiences can become boring if you lose your sense of purpose. The pleasant times are not over, even if it feels that way today. It's just that you have been through a growth spurt and now you need to pull back and take stock of what you learned so you can make the most of your recent lessons.


hmmm this is sooo true. lately i have been learning valuable lessons about my life and the people involved in it. ughh girls are so freakin stupid i don't understand the point of holding a grudge. if you don't like me, don't pay me any mind. that's how i deal with people i don't care for its actually very easy and better for your own soul. hating only makes the ugliness from inside show through your attitude. and you need to get it in check. schools over for me tomorrow and im so ready for summer and to be happy with the people im around. i love my closest because they always keep a smile on my face, i never wanna leave them ♥






ahhh the male species. as much as you wanna put them in the box as "all niggas are the same" you know that's a lie. the truth is everyboy has bullshit, but the bullshit varies. i hate when girls look for the perfect boy or think they have one. at this age, no nigga is gonna be with a girl without doing something to eff it up like look at other girls, flirt a lil too much, or even cheat. like i said every male brings bullshit, females just need to decide which bullshit they are willing to put up with. honestly i can't deal with any of it and maybe that's why im single. ughh i really don't understand it. im not the type of person to try the same type of male twice no wonder i know too much. i've dealt with the wanna be bad boy, musician, jock, shy one, oldhead, and a bitchass. ugh and the bitchass is what is getting under my skin. how you gonna tell me big sister's bf a lie about me and don't think imm find out? then when i go in on ya ass you wanna lie and say you was talking about somebody else? ughh! i don't get boys, they swear females were born yesterday. then today i find out he trying to talk to one of my friends? oh this is the bullshit im talking about. niggas this young ain't worred about getting a girlfriend they gonna care for forever, they want that piece of ass and if you ain't giving it up they on to the next. especially this time of year. SUMMER! niggas get so slick when that sun touch the skin and these girls start wearing less and less clothing. well since niggas turn into plyers when the sun stops playing hide and seek, imma be on my player status, with my own type of bullshit that these niggas can experience. betcha like 300 niggas will be in line when im on my shit.

FEEL THE WRATH NIGGAS!

hair washed, game on, blogging...

okay so its almost 10pm and right about now im sitting here watching game 3 between lakers & magic. honestly i don't like neither one of these teams, i was with the cavaliers. but since they're out i guess imma go with magic. seems as that too many people wanna be on the lakers team only when they made it to the finals. ughh! whatever. anyways i just washed my hair and i waiting for my mother to come upstairs and do something with it for me because i desperately need it. tomorrow is thursday and im goin to 6flags with the band! i ♥ them! well mot of em anyways. this past weekend i had so much fun with my sister diamond! ughh it was great. got to see my new boo at the time. lol im such a player. but i might wife this one right here, depending on if he acting right. went to a party, had hella fun even though it was too damn hot! lol but anyways....be back later with another blog when ever i feel like it. i'll probably start working in the next 2 weeks. thank god for the job ughh! idk how many days are left in school and nor do i care; because soon as finals are over, IM OUT! 1 more year class of 2010! =]


mwuahhhhhhhh! ♥

aye ya ya !

prom!

so prom was exactly a week ago and i had so much fun. it was at the carriage house and it was absolutely beautiful. i love my friends.



besides that:

this week has been quick. i celebrated my sister's birthday on friday. revealed a males true colors. healed some emotional wounds. now im working on something new ha ha. i call em mr egoso. but thats all you need to know about him... everything else will come out in due time. in the meantime i have homework to do, and i am watching law & order: svu. maybe i'll converse with mr egoso til 1 am like i did last night. ttyl! SMOOCHESSSSSSSSSSSS ♥

long time, no blog

okay first off, i just saw the funniest video of Spectacular, from Pretty Ricky. he's challenging other male entertainers such as chris brown & bow wow to a grinding contest. the last thing i think i will see bow wow do is grind. he proceeds to embarrass himself by grinding by himself & with these red drawers on...idk ppl. he's looking kinda suspect



anyways, i haven't been on in a while and a lot has been going on in my life. my prom is in 2 days exactly and im so very excited.


i also got hired at burger king, so now i am employed & don't have to got job hunting like the rest of you unemployed mongrels.

i recived my SAT scores back and i recieved a 1660! i was so excited and that was only my 1st time taking them and i hope i will do way better the next time.


only things to do now, is to prepare myself for finals and make a list of the schools i would like to apply to attend in the fall of 2010.


right now? im about to get off, watch college hill at the same times as giving myself a well needed pedicure, and finishing my "the great gatsby" study guide for english!



smoochessssssssssssss ♥

why must the good die young, lord?

you know this past year has showed me nothing but death all around me. so many people that i have been around and known has either died, or one of their family members has died. i can't take it anymore! its beginning to be too much for my heart. first cory (rip always], shakiera's mom, then my friends' grandfather, her friends' father, and now amy. now i can understand an older person dying because they have lived a life. but amy and cory hardly got to live at all. less than 2 decades on earth and they're already gone. i remember seeing cory in the hallways and seeing him walking around keely's house with the biggest smile and the funniest jokes. me walking past amy in the hallways. now its like the TLC waterfalls video when all the people just fade away. luckily no one has passed away in my family yet, because i don't wanna know how it feels to lose a part of my heart. i mean if one of my friends passed suddenly, i'd be in a state of depression. at the same time i have to understand the fact that there are reasons behind GODs plans. like the bible says, our days are numbered. when its time for him to take you, you have to go. i just hope when i leave this physical world, i will have fulfilled the destiny GOD has for me. the ones lost will be missed forever and every second of everyday. RIP to you all...

let me think, what could i do to kick it of ?

Do you suck on peanut shells instead of eating the actual peanut?
-sometimes, because peanuts are dry as hell

Do you have a runny nose right now?
-kinda ughh allergy season!

If you were a dog, what breed would you be?
-either a maltese or a bichon frise!

Are there any candles near you?
-nahhh

Last thing you were nervous about?
-my anatomy test

Have you ever been a featured member on Bzoink?
-nah im not even a member

Favorite thing to do?
-sleep & listen to my ipod

Close your eyes: What colors do you see?
-red & some green

Do you know anyone personally who has been on a T.V.
show?
-ummmm nope

Three things you think are over rated:
-sex
-sex
-&sex! lol

Are you sick right now?
-nope, just my allergies

Do anything fun today?
-ummmm is school fun?

Are you worried about anything?
-nope...anxious

See any good movies lately?
-yeahhhhh a lot of them

What's your opinion on John Lennon?
-the wrong beatle got shot

Is your blood preasure low right now?
-i have regular blood pressure

Doing anything tonight?
-sleeping

What's your favorite painting?
-edward munch's "the scream"

Do post in an online blog/journal?
-yuppers.
myspace & blogspot

If so, what do you write about?
-alot of things

Last dream you remember having?
-ummm i think i was trashing somebody lol

Do you like strawberries?
-yeah i ♥ them !

Last time you went to an open house of any sort?
-wowow its been a wild

Have you ever fainted?
-nope, felt like iwas going to though

If you had to wear one color for the rest of your life what would it be?
-black! lol

dO u HaTe WhEn PePoLe TyPe LyKe dIs?
-lmfaooo heck yeah! its so annoying

Are you afraid of snakes?
-idk if im afraid of them because i've never been in a situation involving any type of danger involving snakes lol

Do you ever wish you were someone else?
-never! no one can be a better me

Favorite type of bird?
-flamingo! lol

thank god it's a freakin' friday !

it's friday. didn't write yesterday, because it was the WORST! don't even wanna dwell on the idiotic situation that erupted for no apparent reason. anyways, didn't go to school, long story. slept til like 9 woke up and got ready. watched some tyra show and a lil bit of maury. my mom came and picked me up and we headed off to my school. had to handle some business and resolve some issues. left there and headed to my mom's chiropractor. i asked him lots of questions since im so interested in my anatomy class and i understood everything he was saying. all the anatomy lingo. he explained what was wrong with my mom and the ways to fix it. we left there and headed to the nearby WaWa. i ordered a nice turkey hoagie and it was POPPIN! i can taste it just thinking about it. then we headed to Rissy Roo's to see if i could find a prom dress. we went in there planning to find a short dress for junior prom, but the sales lady saw me and immediately decided she was gonna get me into something long. every dress was like absolutely gorgeous and the woman had so much fun dressing me up in these dresses while my mother just commented on the prices. in her words i have "expensive taste". which i know is true, but hey i can' help it, i love fashion and i have a good eye for it. so i tried on a bunch of dresses and the top 3 were all made by the same designer go figure. well we found the dress with the "wow factor" that i think is the SHIT! it costs almost $400, but it's absolutely beautiful. NO ONE will have my dress. well anyways, came home around 4 something and took a nap. got up talked to some friends, listened to some music, and chilled. today was really chill. now im jammin to my blog playlist while watching my favorite show "king of the hill" hella funny. about to take it down because the music is so soothing...

what's for breakfast ?

WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOW!

happy hump day hoes !

it's wednesday. lol. i had a good day. no real problems with anyone. went outside in gym and played tennis with keely and bianca. then watched a movie and talked about how early is too early to have sex with your boyfriend. i think it depends on the person and if you feel as though your ready. had a sub in alg 2 and i slept in there as usual. had a good show today with tynetta and we got alot done. engligh was boring as hell and ms. plumbo talked us to death btu luckily the bell rang. spanish was easy but people were too damn loud. lunch ughh! devante and vaughn get on my effing nerves. they can kiss my ass! lol. an history was funny as usual sitting next to william, kody, and matt.



tomorrow im thinking i wanna wear heels and a skirt we'll see how this goes.



do boys still like girls after not being with them? i always thought no, but i guess i was wrong. boys care just as much as girls, but they don't show it. we're sneaky when it comes to certain things, but boys are the masters of disguise when it comes to their feelings. why weren't girl taught the same thinggs boys were when it comes to emotions? i always thinkg of that.

soulja boy's stanky leg !

the video speaks for itself

it's unbelievable, you see my warning, give you big chills !

whoah! so it's like a tuesday! just a regular day at school. i just put on my POD as usual and chilled out the whole day. gym was okay nothing new, except ve told me that the "stanky leg" dance came from boys trying to get their dicks off their legs when they are having sex with a girl. HA! anatomy was boring as usual with all the lectures. alg 2 trig, don't get me started i fall asleep almost every day. radio is always funny with tynetta and sajid, only problem is i had to pee like a race horse and ran outta class as soon as the bell rang! lmfao. english was just english, but my teacher is funny. spanish is a bird course and me & bria just talked the whole time. LUNCH ahhh how good. i had a nice slice of pizza. but the thing that boggles me is that they somehow "ran outta food". lol how does a school, "run outta food"? lol but i had my lunch so it didn't matter. i had a nice conversation with my lunch buddy. we always have fun in lunch. history... lol my ex named william is such a nut, i don't know how our teacher deals with him. he and this boy named matt were talking about making weed scented air fresheners. PRICELESS! there was supposed to be this big walkout at 1:55pm but niggas bitched out. but i saw it coming. after school there was a track meet against EHT and we lost, but bria, ni, and amber did good. the bus ride home was horrible because the driver was a reckless one. came home, went to sleep and woke up again. ate buffalo wings, and now im writing you. okay im kinda tired now soo i guess i'll write tomorrow. i have a show on 88.9 WAJM DJ DIMPLEZ listen at 10:20am! TOMORROW IS EARTH DAY!

rainy mondays: First Day Back

let me spit some hot ish to ya right quick. okay so BOOM! lol. today was the 1st day back from spring break, i know, i know. tired as hell having to wake up at 6 o'clock in the effing morning, but whatever. got fly as hell, as usual. heels on, you know how i do. i got the new hairstyle poppin & i got alot of compliments on it. one girl said i looked like i was from the future. thank you! lol sooooo all my classes were boring, except a few. english, had a substitute. the guy was crazy! he was going on ego trips calling the class his and kept staring at me & my friend. so we ended up arguing with him. he was acting like i lil ass kid, and he's a TEACHER. i think he was racist or something cuz he just kept looking at us. anyways, lunch is always funny and mar got braces how cayuuute! vaughn is getting his taken off in 2 days & i have perfect teeth so go figure. lol i love my friends. 8th period is the worst. history, one of my exes are in there from 8th grade and all he does is tell me how much he wants to suck my lips off since they're so sexy. i just laugh and tell him to stop since he has a girl & i think she is sweet. ughh. came home on a rainy, tore up, congested bus [and i don't know why it wasn't my normal bus] and it stank like god knows what plus rain water. had a nice convo with muji & kay about changing your ways in a relationship. but muji doesn't feel as though he needed to change so it was a lost cause. lol. came home, and slept til 7:30, put some pics up, now im talking to my CbC sisters. maybe more later when i feel like it. =]

the infamous CbC

okay. now before the buzz goes around let me school you in on the CarteBlancheClique. its composed of me & some of my sisters: sha-ree, bria, & tyesha [but there will be more to come soon]. if you're wondering how we came up with that name, i'll explain. i was looking on thefreedictionary.com like i susualy do and i stumbled upon this word "carte blanche". it's pronounced like cart blansh and means; Unrestricted power to act at one's own discretion; unconditional authority. and there we became the CarteBlancheClique. i wanna be called the headmaster; since i discovered the words carte blanch, but they won't let me. lol. imma just take it upon myself and i crown thyself as: the CbC HeadMaster Fatale ! you'll be hearing more about us soon. =D

& i can't help but wonder...

mannn. i don't know what im doing writing anything right now. im supposed to be writing a research paper, but spring break is over and so unsatisfied. ugh! feels like it went so quick. but i did do a lot of things with like everyone. from going bowling with the CarteBlancheClique and seeing the GreenStreetMafia, going to "block parties" , out just to walk around, and to parties where the girl having it didn't like me because she thought i bumped her and didn't say "sorry". wow my life is a trip. had a shorty that messed it up, but got something new in the works. he's even willing to get down on one knee to tie my shoe in the middle of the shore mall parking lot. sweet? i know. we'll see how long this goes. even with all the good that's come, i can't help but think about the past all the times. it was good til it was over and there was nothing else to say about it. the only problem is, that im confronted with the almost perfect past everyday in school. i had a whole week to not be around it, but tomorrow is the day it comes back to haunt my thoughts. the more i try to ignore it, the more it's put into my face. i hate it, but i can't do anything but just deal.even though i always say that "everything happens for a reason", i can't help but wonder...

the introduction into my mind...

okay well since this is my first time posting a blog, allow me in introduce myself. i am niyeirah aka miss femme fatale and you have stumbled upon my blog spot. as you read into the blogs i will put up in the future, you will see i have a very unusual mentality. i think about things differently and i talk about whatever i want. so if you feel as though you might be offended in any way by my thoughts, please leave now. other than that, i think my page will be a daily venture for your eyes and your mind.