& i can't help but wonder...

mannn. i don't know what im doing writing anything right now. im supposed to be writing a research paper, but spring break is over and so unsatisfied. ugh! feels like it went so quick. but i did do a lot of things with like everyone. from going bowling with the CarteBlancheClique and seeing the GreenStreetMafia, going to "block parties" , out just to walk around, and to parties where the girl having it didn't like me because she thought i bumped her and didn't say "sorry". wow my life is a trip. had a shorty that messed it up, but got something new in the works. he's even willing to get down on one knee to tie my shoe in the middle of the shore mall parking lot. sweet? i know. we'll see how long this goes. even with all the good that's come, i can't help but think about the past all the times. it was good til it was over and there was nothing else to say about it. the only problem is, that im confronted with the almost perfect past everyday in school. i had a whole week to not be around it, but tomorrow is the day it comes back to haunt my thoughts. the more i try to ignore it, the more it's put into my face. i hate it, but i can't do anything but just deal.even though i always say that "everything happens for a reason", i can't help but wonder...